I Am 

I never knew how strong I was, until I had to be stronger than I already thought I was. 

I never knew how brave I was ’til I was braver than I thought I could be. 

I never knew how much power I had, until I had to use more than I thought I had. 

I never saw myself as a hero, until I actually had to set myself free…

Lately I’ve been working VERY hard to accomplish my goals. For the past two weeks, I have worked every day with no days off in between. 

Next to some job specializing in a specific science; my job is extremely difficult. 9 out of the past 14 days, I’ve endured 16 hour shifts. I’ve had wet towels thrown in my face, I’ve been punched, kicked, and slapped. I’ve been blatantly disrespected, and called out of my name. All of this for the sake of serving the needs of traumatized children. 

Society’s dysfunction and life’s traumatizing events effect our children the most. The trauma my kids at work have suffered have left them with broken homes, broken thoughts, and broken hearts. A lot of them are behind in logical development. A lot of them have no idea how to identify and appropriately display their emotions.  As a result of the causes of trauma, I am left to deal with the effects. 

What my team and I do on a daily basis is physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausting. It’s both sad and frustrating to have the abuse a child has suffered being transferred onto you. It’s also very painful. I have been through a lot in my life, and working with traumatized children continues to open my eyes to the ugliness of the world. It has also given me the tools to cope with the struggles I deal with in my personal life. My kids at work have changed me for the better. I am who I say I am, and it’s their fault. Helping my kids process their trauma has made me a stronger, more confident person.  

What doesn’t kill you DOES make you stronger.  

What have you dealt with, or are dealing with that’s shaped your self esteem?? 

Comment below because I’m interested to know! 

Don’t let the difficulties of your life overshadow the beautiful person you are. Continue to be yourself with no equivocation. 
I love you all, 

Belle.